Jeff Rest in Peace

Just like that, you went into a deeper dream state, Even when the world around you slowly awake. For us, life changed after you pass away. For you, it’s just another peaceful day.

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I Fucked up November

感謝十一月,即使我搞砸了十一月,他還是從容的鞠躬謝幕,輕輕的撫摸著我的頭,告訴我,「沒事的,都過去了。」

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DAY ONE

有人讀了HelloPapi網誌後問我前面的數字代表著什麼? 我告訴她那是計算著我當了爸爸的天數。 今天是第4019天,從我見到你的那一天開始算起。

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at the Break of Dawn

我記得從台北車站回南港的區間車上,低著頭,一個中年男子像個孩子一樣的放聲哭泣。幾天前得知要再當爸爸的喜悅,就在那天早上,帶Annie去看了婦產科後破碎。而我卻冷漠的把仍處於不安與沈痛心情的她丟至一旁,選擇去遵守一個沒人在乎的約定。

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Goodbye, my child.

昨天是你的生日,其實我也不確定你是哪一天出生,我跟你乾爹只是大概算了一下,應該是在六月初,然後選擇了6跟8這兩個吉利的數字當做你的生日。而你選擇了在這天離去,應該也是在體諒我這個健忘的老爸,要我永遠不要忘記這個特別的日子。

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2 Years

November is ours, your mom always says that. We welcome you to this world and watch you leave on this month of year. It’s been raining for couple days now, I think it’s trying to remind me how much tears I had shed that year and how much I missed you.

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a confrontation letter to the doctor

我們很自責無法給孩子完整無缺的身體狀況,但是更無法原諒我們粗心讓她處於危險狀態而我們完全不自覺。 從禮拜三進榮總加護病房後,我也只能在探視時間去看她,看她被控制食量、被一堆冷冰冰的儀器圍繞著大哭時,我也只能無能為力的在一邊乾著急,所有的心痛與不捨卻無法抱著安慰她,也不知道下一步該怎麼做。

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Special Day

Today is a very special day… Last year the same date, after one exact day visiting the world, you said goodbye. I will always remember that day…

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To my son, Zee..

你在來到這個世界整整23小時後,又匆匆的離開‥我有再多的不捨,都必須面對這個殘忍的現實‥我想,你累了‥爸爸對不起你,沒給你一個好的因子,讓你殘缺的來到這個世界,讓你必須一開始就接受折磨‥我的心,好痛好痛 痛在自己的無能為力‥看著你受罪,而我只能站在一旁落淚。

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